“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me” (2 Corinthians 12.9 NIV).
Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about my weaknesses. One of my biggest struggles is insecurity. A long time ago, the Holy Spirit showed me that my insecurity is rooted in pride. I can’t be perfect; therefore, I’m insecure. Pride is a sticky sin that sinks beneath the seams, masquerading as something reasonable, as it slowly poisons our souls.
I guess that’s where God’s grace and my humility collide. I must learn to walk in His strength even with my obvious flaws marking up my life. I must choose to walk in confidence of what Jesus did on the cross and not allow my meager accomplishments mask my worthlessness without Christ.
But, I’ve also been thinking about God’s power. Paul states in 2 Corinthians that God’s power is made perfect in my weakness. After wrestling with my weakness for many years, releasing it to God and trying to prevent it from tainting my vision, I think I’ve finally figured out how God’s power is made perfect in this weakness of mine.
It forces me to forsake myself.
I know with certainty that my weakness mucks up my perspective. My insecurity tempts me to seek self-glory, look for flaws in others, question my faith and doubt my abilities in Christ. My weakness robs me of peace, sapping my joy and diminishing my hope, and fills me with rampant thoughts of worry and despair. I can’t trust myself with this weakness, so I have to rely entirely on God.
I die to self, so I can finally have life (Galatians 2.20). My weakness causes me to be so dead to self that I can boast in that weakness because it causes me to cling to Christ! It’s not my strengths, talents or abilities that cause me to forsake self; it’s my weakness. And once I’ve learned to walk outside of my natural tendencies and live fully the Spirit, God will restore my soul and lead me along paths of righteousness (Psalm 23.2-3).
I abandon my weakness for the perfection in Christ that is mine by faith! Once I’ve surrendered that weakness to God, the power of Christ will have full reign to shine through!
Questions: Do you have a weakness that tries to wreak havoc in your life? Have you learned to forsake it and rely totally on God’s power? What can you do today to identify and abandon your weakness?