Last Steps of Youth
I stopped at the bathroom after work before heading home. I had just finished teaching a class, and I was drained but satisfied. I washed my hands and looked in the mirror before heading toward the door. As I glanced at my image, my reality snapped and my mind briefly froze. Something was wrong.
I could feel the brain waves in my head scrambling to figure out what had changed. I turned my head slowly from side to side. My brain knew that the reflection was mine, yet it was having trouble relating to it. Suddenly, it felt like all my understanding smacked into a wall and my eyes closed and my hands grabbed onto the sink. When I looked back at my reflection, I knew what had happened.
Time had passed and I had slowly left my youth behind. When she finally realized she was lagging, she tried to catch up but was unable to cross the barrier of maturity. She was not strong enough to bear the burdens with which I have grown accustomed. I looked at my face again and understood what my mind had so much trouble processing. I was no longer a girl, a student, a girlfriend, a dependent and a follower. I was a woman, a teacher, a wife, a supporter and a leader.
For a moment, I felt fear that I would drown in the sea of responsibility. But I focused my eyes on God, and He flooded me with peace that He would guide and bless my every step. Sometimes I look at all of the responsibilities that I juggle everyday, and I become overwhelmed. But I realize that I am blessed to even have the ability to fulfill so many needs. To serve is Christ-like, and that is exactly what I was created for. The blessing that comes with serving greatly outweighs the burden.
“Those who have served well gain an excellent standing and great assurance in their faith in Christ Jesus.”
– 1 Timothy: 3.13 (NIV)
“Father, help me not to become overwhelmed by my responsibilities. Instead, show me what a wonderful privilege it is to be able to fulfill the needs for so many people. Show me people and areas that I can start serving today.”