Am I loved when I feel unlovable? That’s the question the Holy Spirit whispered to me when I least expected it.
God’s promises seem almost in my grasp when I have it all together. But when I’m a mess, they appear distant and impossible. What has changed? God is resolutely faithful, but I am imperfect human, sliding on a slippery scale of sanctification. I didn’t realize that I based God’s love on my performance until I ran out of strength to perform.
Do God’s promises mean less when I fail? Does our relationship disintegrate when I’m weak?
These are questions I never had to ask. I’ve pursued Him, trying to stay one step ahead of defeat. There was always another path to take—another way to make myself worthy of His blessing. And the result of this self-disciplined journey leads to the same end: I am nothing without God; everything comes from Him, through Him and to Him (Romans 11.36).
“For the LORD is good. His unfailing love continues forever, and his faithfulness continues to each generation” (Psalm 100.5 NLT).
God’s love stays true even when I mess up. God’s promises remain fixed even when I’m tired. God’s Word stands firm even when I falter. My life is tucked inside the death, burial and resurrection of Jesus; and His holiness is mine because He claimed my sin as His own. So I remove the faith I have placed in my corner and stake it all on Jesus. He is my only winning bet.
I hide from God when I look my worse, but He takes me by the face and demands that I see His love for me has not changed.
“So we have come to know and to believe the love that God has for us. God is love, and whoever abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him” (1 John 4.16 ESV).