“Do you not know that when you present yourselves to someone as slaves for obedience, you are slaves of the one whom you obey, either of sin resulting in death, or of obedience resulting in righteousness?” (Romans 5.16 NASB).
The five hours I waited before my fight (it was 10th out of 11 fights), I wouldn’t open myself to emotion. Fear had boxed me in, so I flat-lined my feelings and relied solely on faith. Right before the promoters played my fight song — which began my long walk to the cage — I quickly exposed my fear to God. I told Him that I was scared, and that I wanted to run away. I felt God ask me one question: “If I told you to walk into that cage and get crushed for me, would you do it?” Yes, I conceded. “Then you have nothing to worry about,” He answered. And in that moment, I felt the amazing depth of obedience. I talked a lot about obedience while filming for the CMT Made show, and I was told that I shouldn’t use that word since people really don’t understand it. However, the truth is that obedience is extremely important because it can lead to life or death. We all have a choice: We can obey ourselves and our own desires or we can obey God and His amazing plan. I know myself — my understanding is limited, I make lots of mistakes and I know that my heart is selfish. I also know God — His understanding is limitless, He never makes mistakes and His heart is for me. I would be a fool not to put my allegiance in Him. I am a creation; He is the Creator. I want to enslave myself to God, so He can be the rider of my life and take me places I could never dream of going on my own. Why would I want to be the master of my own soul when the God of the Universe loves me more than I love myself? God created life, and He knows how to make mine abundant (John 10.10). After I won my fight, I was able to tell almost 2,000 people about the goodness of my God from center stage of the arena. I would have never gotten that opportunity if I had been obedient to my own desires. I don’t understand everything that God does, but I trust that His ways come together to form His perfect plan for me (Romans 8.28).
God, I know that it is very difficult to let go of the controls and give my life as a living sacrifice to You. But I also trust that my life will have more meaning and power when it is submitted to Your authority. I want my life to make a difference and have a purpose, and I have faith that You will shine Your glory in my life when I stay obedient to Your will. I pray this in Jesus’ name, Amen.