“When the crop began to grow and produce grain, the weeds also grew” (Matthew 13.26 NLT).
When I watched my CMT MADE Reality show for the first time, I was so embarrassed. The fact is that I’m not perfect, and several of my flaws were on display. I fumed over my obvious mistakes and even called several of the producers. I said some things that were a tad ridiculous, and I begged them to change some scenes or at least let me give explanations. Of course, nothing can be done once a project is finalized, so I cried out to God. Why would He lead me into a direction just to showcase my weakness? Was I so far-gone that He needed to humble me in front of everyone? Finally, God got my attention with one question: “What is more powerful? Your mistakes or my grace?” I realized that I had been committing idolatry. I put more emphasis on my mistakes than on God’s sovereign authority. We are all sinners, and everything we create for God will have flaws, but those flaws will not stop God from establishing His glory (2 Cor. 12.9). Jesus used the parable of the wheat and the weeds to illustrate that we will always find some things that we don’t like about a person, a ministry, a job, a book, a school, a family, etc.; but that doesn’t mean we should discredit all the wheat (virtue) because of a few weeds (sin). When God gave me this truth, I fell in love with my show. I can see God’s glory all over it, and my little mistakes now seem so insignificant.
God, help me to realize that my mistakes are no match for your grace. I will never be perfect, but my flaws will not hinder me from walking out on faith for You. I’m determined not to judge others by their weaknesses; instead, I want to focus on the harvest of goodness that You are growing in them. I know that when I keep my eyes on You, the glory produced will outweigh all of my mess-ups. I pray this in Jesus’ name, Amen.