I’ve been very confused lately. God asked me to take a step of faith over a year ago, and I’ve mapped out my entire life in the direction of this step. Lately, however, I haven’t had any clarity. The time is up for me to take the next several steps in the journey that I planned out, but God is not directing me in that path. I feel lost in a train station full of tracks that lead in different directions.
Finally, I begged God to help me. I told God that He had put me on a journey but has stopped leading me. And God told me, “I never told you to go on this journey. I simply asked you to take a step in that direction. I have another journey for you that is far better than what you could ever plan, so why don’t you just give up planning your life altogether.”
I was so excited because — truth be told — I was never very thrilled about the journey I had planned for myself. In fact, I hated the journey, but I just kept telling myself, “If God wants me there, then my happiness will be there too.” But, no matter how much faith I had, I just couldn’t find joy in the situation. God hadn’t chosen that direction for me; of course, I couldn’t find joy!
Now I am so pumped about the future. I have realized that there is absolutely NO WAY I could ever plan my life as well as the Master Planner. He has so many wonderful things in store for me and my family, and nothing I could imagine could ever come close. I am going to try very hard not to plan. I’ve learned that just because God has me take a step in one direction, it doesn’t mean I know the rest of the journey. I know nothing compared to God. How could my extremely limited viewpoint ever plan further than one day?
I am so relieved that I don’t have to plan. God has something so amazing prepared for me, and I don’t want to mess it all up! I just want to rest in the Lord and trust that He will guide each day’s steps, which will eventually unfold into an AWESOME God-designed journey! Thank You, Lord, for teaching me to abide in You. Free me from the plans that weigh down my life and muck up my brain!
“Many are the plans in a person’s heart,
but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails” (Proverbs 19.21 NIV).