The Weight of Unrest
I have given birth to three amazing children, and after each pregnancy, I had a lot of pounds to shed. I gained 55lbs with my first child, 45lbs with my second child and 35lbs with my third child; and for an entire year after the delivery day, I struggled to fit back into my clothes. I had very little to wear because my pre-pregnancy clothes were too small and my maternity clothes were too big, and I wouldn’t allow myself to buy new clothes.
After my first two babies were born, I lived with great unrest and lost my peace because I became too self-focused and overly worried about losing weight. I was filled with guilt if I didn’t work out or if I ate something high in calories. However, by the third baby, I knew the routine, and I was better able to trust that “this too shall pass.” Losing weight is a difficult task, but I wasn’t going to forsake my joy over a slice of pizza or a missed day at the gym.
Any struggle that we allow to take our focus off of the Lord and onto ourselves and our circumstance will cause unrest in our lives. When we lose sight of Jesus, we will begin to lose our peace and joy, and our struggle will wreak havoc in our minds and hearts. Although it took me a few years, I learned to trust my strength in the Lord and not allow my focus to stay centered on my struggle. We can have peace in our difficulty when we focus on God and His great love for us.
“For the Lord your God is living among you.
He is a mighty savior.
He will take delight in you with gladness.
With his love, he will calm all your fears.
He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.”
– Zephaniah 3.17 (NLT)
“Father, I know that You see my struggle. Help me to stay centered on You, so I don’t lose my peace and joy by focusing on myself. I trust that You will carry me during this time of difficulty and bring me to a place of healing and restoration according to Your plan and purpose.”