Lately, God has been prompting me to do many things that I do not understand. As I take each step of obedience, I can’t help but analyze and romanticize the results. I imagine this awesome outcome that shines the glory of God and affects many lives. I anticipate the gates of heaven opening up, flooding the fruits of my efforts with miraculous and jaw-dropping wonders. However, the endings that I dream up usually fizzle away, and I’m left with conclusions that wouldn’t make it into book, let alone a best-sellers’ list.
After one such disappointing end to a much built up step of obedience, I asked God what I was doing wrong. Clearly, I was messing something up or not fully understanding God’s whispers into my heart. Although I’m sure that God appreciated my version of the story, I can’t help but think He must have been quite amused. He finally showed me what I was missing: Everything!
He told me that I have a very limited perspective of my life, so I cannot fully comprehend the beautiful story that He is weaving for me. He also told me that when I do know the eternal scope of my time on earth and the outcome of all my steps of obedience are laid before me, I will fall to my knees in awe of the miraculous and jaw-dropping wonder that He created through my obedience and trust in Him. I want to trust that God is planting great beauty in my life even when I don’t always see it.
“How foolish can you be?
He is the Potter, and he is certainly greater than you, the clay!
Should the created thing say of the one who made it,
‘He didn’t make me’?
Does a jar ever say,
‘The potter who made me is stupid’?”
-Isaiah 29.16 (NLT)
“Lord, please help me to be obedient to You even when I don’t understand the outcome. Help me to be content with the fact that I may not get immediate gratification with my steps of faith. Let me trust in the knowledge that You have something awesome planned for me if only I walk in step with the Holy Spirit. Be with me now as I take new steps of faith.”