“Each time he said, ‘My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.’ So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me” (2 Corinthians 12.9 NLT).
During a significantly tense moment while filming for the CMT Show, I snapped at one of the producers. I felt like I was being set up for a disappointment, and I blamed her for letting me down. Of course, she had nothing to do with what happened. She was just an innocent bystander caught in the crossfire who just so happened to be holding a camera. I immediately said sorry, and I felt heavy with regret. This particular producer had been on my heart, and I had been praying for her and talking with her about Christ. I was upset at myself for blowing it so terribly. I talked with her about my mistake later that day, and she understood and even empathized with me. I apologized again, and let her know that I felt badly about my actions. She seemed to appreciate my sincerity, and life went on as usual. As a Christian, I sometimes feel this need to be perfect, but I’m not perfect and never will be. However, I’m beginning to realize that people don’t want perfect; they want honest. They want to see a flawed person walk in confidence while simultaneously admitting her mistakes and shortcomings. Nobody is perfect, and that should encourage us to base our self-esteem on God’s perfection not our own.
God, I know that I will never be perfect, and I’m determined to have a keen understanding of my strengths and weaknesses. I want to be able to freely admit when I did a great job and when I blew it. No one is exempt from making mistakes, but only a handful become graceful at admitting and apologizing for them. I will remain confident that Your power will shine in my weakness. I pray this in Jesus’ name, Amen.