“When the priests enter them, they shall not go out of the holy chamber into the outer court; but there they shall leave their garments in which they minister, for they are holy. They shall put on other garments; then they may approach that which is for the people” (Ezekiel 42.14 NKJV).
I talk about God a lot; and when I was filming for the CMT MADE show, He was apparent in my thoughts, actions and words. I find satisfaction in mulling over His character, His movements and His Word, and I can’t help but mention everything He’s showing me. Yes, the trainers and producers thought I was a little weird, but I enjoyed discussing my spirituality. I say this because when I saw the show for the first time, I noticed that only a few of my God-nods made it into the final cut. (And to be honest, a ton of stuff had to be cut because there just wasn’t enough space). At first I felt guilty, and I worried that the audience wouldn’t see enough of God in my life; but God really reaffirmed me in His Word. I read that the priest needed to change out of the clothes they wore to minister (serve) God in the Holy Sanctuary before they entered into the courtyard where the people were. We all have our Holy place with God, and our intimacy might confuse, disturb or even hurt others. Non-Christians may think we’re complete lunatics if they don’t know us personally, and other Christians may feel like they need to force their intimacy with God to resemble ours. When Jesus revealed His perfect intimacy with God in His transfiguration, He was only around His three closest friends (Mark 9.2). I shouldn’t feel like I need to reveal the intimate aspects of my relationship with Christ to the masses. I must trust that my walk of faith will bear evidence of my close relationship with Him, and that the life I lead will cause people to notice a difference. Once people see my strength in Christ, I can be ready for when the Holy Spirit opens the door for me to offer a glimpse of my own transformation into His image (2 Cor. 3.18).
God, I don’t want to pile on guilt about not revealing enough of You. You have my heart, and I’m relieved to know that the bulk of my intimacy with You is special and private. I know that You are totally capable of establishing Your own glory, and I’m honored that You desire a personal, intimate relationship with me. I pray this in Jesus’ name, Amen.